J: Not really... The whole point was to pretty much just to fellowship. Like, I know when I first came I felt like the only big Christian there other than Josh (Though I knew that wasn't true, that didn't matter because I didn't know any.)
J: Then I started hanging out with her and it was fun to hang out with people who didn't act like typical school kids. =P
J: So it'd pretty much be so you could get to know other Christians you didn't know existed.
....I was right next to him, that whole time.....
The person who is supposed to know me better then anyone else in the world, didn't include me in major Christians he knew.
It hurt more then anything else.
It was as if he took a knife and cut the stiches that were holding kept my eyes from seeing just how messed up I've become.
Then Eric brought up a good point. J didn't say anything, it was God using him to get a point acrosse to me that I have got to start making some changes.
I speak of corruption in chruches, I speak of Christians spending time in prayer groups instead of going out and spreading the Word, I critize everyone and everything.
Yet where am I sunday morning?
Sleeping in.
I feel as though this was a calling, a "Hey Genny, you need to get your act together becuase I've got plans for you" kinda thing.
It excites me so much to know that I will be used for something more then what I'm doing, or saying that other people sould do.
It bothers me that J dosn't seem to think I love God as much as I do, but most of all, it bothers me why I care so much! I should be completly selfless to God, and when God decides its time J know that, that J will know it.
And I'm not talking, "I told ya so" I'm talking a turn around, a 180, where people will begin looing at me and thinking "You know...somethings weird about that girl"
Because, yes, I'm nice to everyone, no, I never judge anyone, yes, I'll let you borrow anything I have you might need, but thats still not enough to show people the love of God.
Neither is runnig about walking up to people you bad mouth and then going to church sunday.
Its this crazy thing really.
You've got religion? Well...er.....thats not really impressive. Sorry.
You've got a RELATIONSHIP? Well then thats another story! Congrats! I"m sure your just as excited as I am to take it to the next level with God, perhaps, even, dare I say....outside the CHURCH!?!
And maybe you know, I might actualy take my relationship with God INSIDE the church.
Wow. Things are getting crazy.
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