Realization

Today I realized, I'm terrified of talking and connecting to boys. I do not know why this is. Before I talked to them and connected and sometimes they'd like me more then I liked them but they always ended up my best friends.

So why do i keep pushing them all away here?

My realization

I don't think you get to say the things you do, act the way you do, without any consequences.

I'm almost strong enough to stop you. No more of me hanging on.