Fears and Doubts

Sometimes, my desire to be free of everything out weighs everything else.

Well This is going well.

I wanna taste the breeze

We are working this out.

I have never felt as sure of anything as I did J, the person who told me you could feel safe with anyone was wrong, but I know its just something that takes time.

There are blended familys who have to deal with marriages and kids and all sorts of crazyness. No wonder the mental health in America is nuts, I don't know how those people can handle it.

I can't even figure out to work with Brody and J. We're all trying darnnit. Its just not that easy.

We eat lunch together, we ride in cars together, but then when its just me and him talking....things don't work.

Its alright though becuase were working! And if the crazy blended familys of america can do it with only a touch of mental instability then so can we!.

Spring Break, Phone Tag, and New Boyfriends

Perspective is humbiling.

Becuase at the moment I"m furstrated with the fact I insisted B' go to his dads becuase I thought we were all hanging out tomorrow night, only to find out that it is indeed going to be the old crowd all together and I will be the odd person out.

However I know that next week, this will not seem like a very big deal at all. Tomorrow in fact, it will not seem like a very big deal.

Networking my friends so they do not kill each other is a full time job ya know. Its difficult, and they arn't making it any easeir.

I feel as though it is my responsiblity to make sure balance occurs, becuase Kyle used to care about it and yet now it seems like I hvae cast away my plans for nothing.

But the kid is so darn senseitve that I can't tell him that becuase then he'll feel bad.

Tomorrow. It won't matter Tomorrow. :D

Also I have my new phone! too bad it has to be charged until 7 Tomorrow. :(