The year was 2007

So today I decided I was pretty tired of being everywhere at once, being brave and strong, pretending to care, caring, school, teachers, softball, parents, non-friends.

To my mother, who I love, and whom loves me dearly,

I'm tired of you getting on me. This is what I suggest. If you want to tell at me for having my shoes in the bathroom, figure out where the hell I go afterschool. take some damn responsibilty for the house and for me. I know your tired. I know you don't feel very well right now. Don't bitch at me for a parents meeting I don't particurly want you at anyway. I'm not making you go.

In the car on the way home when your blaming me for the world issues, I'd appriciate if you'd not tell me all I do is bitch and that you don't want to here it.

News flash, you don't know where I am half the time. You don't hear it. I spent my fucking birthday with people I've known for 2 days becuase you locked yourslef in the guest bed room and felt bad because you didn't have anything prepaird.

And guess what, despite your efforts, i still had a good birthday.

Do not act like as if I force you to do so many difficutl things. Trust me. I would have you as little as invovled as possible. Trust me. If I could drive, you wouldn't be anywhere near me or my needs.

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To my father, who thinks he's the poor pathetic man I"m begingin to consider him,

Go screw yourself. I spent 3months in a row in a fucking hospital because you were too damn selfish to take care of yourself in the first place. Don't tell me your sick, you made yourself that way. You gulit me into doing all your shit for you and then bring me down becuase I'm never strong enough or not a boy. One thing your selfishnes has taught me is I can do whatever the heck I need to do to get by.

Think of mom once in a while m'kay? Everything will and always will be about you oh amazing lord of hte house, but she's the one who keeps everything together, or at least trys, so shut up and go with it. I can leave in 3 years. she can't.

Or, you can do that whole devorce thing again.

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This all sounds very selfish. This all sounds like I don't appriciate them. I do, I swear it. But I want them to either pick parent or annoyance so I can bulid my life around that.