Can we Fake it, can we make believe

Once again, I question when I became important enough to cause fights and arguments.

It seems as though I can no longer please anyone by being kind, that's what got me into this predicament. That's the problem with friends ya know, if your nice to them once they just keep coming back for more and more.

Seriously, it should not be a big deal if I didn't make plans with you. It should not make you angry that I don't WANT to make plans with you, I'm just not a really big party person.

Let me sit home and read. I don't want to do another movie night. I love you all, and I promise I'll help you out, but sometimes I just need a little time and no commitments.

Nothing is certain, and I think my problem is I get so upset when things don't work out according to plan that I've stoped making plans. Spurr of the moment decisions now control my life, and for the most part that works for me.

It doesn't work for Kyle. Or Jon. Or anyone else for that matter.

Actually it works for Aaron. Our shared.....issues work perfectly together.

The moral of this story is, sometimes I want nothing more than to tell everyone to get over it. I don't know why my presence is important enough to you to throw a fit. Your just going to talk to other people once I'm there, and that's cool, so just let me sit at home and read.