Your God knows his faithful

Sittin in his aparment I go through your text messages. Cha-Cha-Charan and you seem to be rather close. Your actualy letting me go through everything, and i"m not sure waht to think to that.

Its shallow, and dumb and pointless and will only lead to awkwardness. Its human nature and I'm semi-okay with sercombing to it. You want to go through my phone. I say no and actualy try to stop you but your bigger then me.

If your jealous you don't act like it, you never did you probably never will. Our compadre is mad at you, gives me a look as though to ask why I'm doing this and I just shake my head. With a joke he hands you the controller and I go back to trying to not fall asleep on his couch.

**

Philosophy has once again come into my favor. Thinking I had sworn it off, trusting blind faith to see me through. Less questions less trouble. Questions are back with vengence. Faith has not however left, intertwing feelings create a sort of intilectual search as apposed to despserate plea.
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"Get me a soda" I laugh but i don't even pretend to mind becuase I honsotly don't. As I walk through his garage his mom screams and reamins doing so.

"Your mom cut herself man" he gives me a sort of confused look. He's holding confrence with another, decussions the reason of my visit.

"We'll come" He says. I smile. I knew he would.

I hug him and in the process spill orange soda on both of us. Seth laughs and makes me carry a bag of needles inside. Seths cool because he drinks diet stuff.

"He said he'd come, can i go?"

He flips around in his room, "You mean you couldn't go with out us?" well no. but i'm not gonna tell you that.
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one night stands arnt all bad. Not always I think. If you can stay away from things you might regret and from becoming attached, they can make really nice memories to have. Warning label reads its rarly achieved but that dosn't mean it can't happen.

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I smiled through the whole thing becuase none of it was my responsibility and I don't sweat anymore so it didn't matter there wasn't any airconditioning. Your actualy being nice and we're all in a good mood so its perfect.

Derek trys to break my finger on the way home. I contemplate breaking his. Seth interveens and we drop Derek off.

they promise to teach me how to drive a stick because my dad sucks as a teacher and i take them up on the offer.

**

I come home and get on my laptop and pretend to be a super hacker. I'm in a good mood. nobody is going to ruin it