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Topic A. I'm tired.

Subtopic A. I have no real responsibilities today.

Topic B. I have many things I Need to acomplish.

Subtopic B. My ear smells like orange juice.

And so today I walk around my house with a fuzzy blanket around me like an old lady who just can't get warm because quite frankly, I can't.

But I"m not trying very hard because I like the feeling of being in a cacoon, its cozy and comforting on a rainy day.

Days like today make me want to do nothing but sit on the couch in my cacooned state and watch DVD's. Which is sorta odd, becuase I used to not be able to sit through a movie, and i used to hate feeling wrapped up.

Today though I feel bad about my simi sleepy state, because I don't want to dissapoint him by not going to watch....how lazy he must think me when i have all the luxerys of lounging and he has no rest for himself.

On another front, I spent 2 in a half years trying to talk to J, only for him to dodge and dissapear when it really mattered. Now he wants to work it all out, and while I should sit, listen, and empahtise I'm done.

I'm not done in a mad "Hurt Me No Longer" lifetime movie way, I just have other things to focus on and he's way too late to warrent my attention.

But me and you, my darling ex, I need to learn to keep our freakish talkings to ourselves, at least when I don't absolutly need to let it out. You are a mystery I must figure out on my own, and no offance E, but your not really an unbiased opinion. ;)

When I say figure out, I don't mean run back to. Do not be afriad my dear.

Football sounds in the backround make my head hurt.....and Faris Bueler is calling my name.

Good Day.


P.S, I hope this post won't make you feel otherwise....but we are VERY good.