Eurika!

I've got it people.

Yeah, you know what I mean.

I've descovered something, something big, something that could/will change my life.

You CAN be happy.

Hah, an epifiny I know.

But as I look around and see my friends and my not so friends collaspe into chaos and misery, I notice there feelings of being sucked into a black hole only rival their feelings to give up.

And I"ll admit to it, I've given up way to many times in this blog. I'll come right out and say it.

I've done stuff to deal with feeling sad, stuff I knew was wrong, and I DIDN"T WANT TO STOP>

I WANTED to feel sad, I wanted to stay up until 4 in the morning crying and feeling alone.

It made me feel differnt, it made me feel like I was standing out by keeping to myself.

THEY didn't know I was unique, but I did.

But now I've figured it out. Being sad and depressed dosn't make you differnt from the masses, it dosn't make you specail or unique or anything of the sort.

It just makes you depressed.

But being happy!? Looking past all thats utterly wrong and confused even when everything seems to be going wrong, keeping in mind that you WILL survive and you WILL overcome because you ARE strong.

Thats what makes you special.