Anger, madness, selfishness, passion, all surging through your veins in a rush of insanity. Keying in on your adrenalin, before you know it your brain has sent the signal and you've screwed up.

Royal screwed up. No going back your stuck to live with the consequences of your actions, never to forget the pain you brought.

But to who? The person it was originally inflected upon, or upon yourself.

Because your reprimanded yourself, asking how you could do such a thing, wondering just what is wrong with you to make you like that.

And there's no forgiveness in sight. You don't want any anyway, you don't' deserve it. The idea of it makes you sick, makes your head hurt.

You would do anything to go back.

Before.

But you can't. Your stuck, you know it, they know it, and its eating you away.

It's never going to change.....

Unless...

Maybe forgiveness is there, maybe you just haven't looked in the right places.

Maybe it will all be better tomorrow, you can't go back, but you can make better.

Or at least, you can try.