Its a very prickly thing

I'm a big music buff, I literly always have songs running through my head, and I"m never with out my cd player.

But its when I'm in a still house with complete silence that I feel time. I feel it changing, and growing, and leaving.

So perhaps thats why I'll always carry earphones.

On another topic all together, heres the best diet plan ever.

Stress.

I'm sure its a thing of personal prefrence, but when I"m nervise about something, or really stressed about meeting someone, I can't eat. I"m not hungry, and I just want to throw up really badly.

Now I"m begining to reilze that theres a simpler way to go about this that I"ve found. It's like when your having a really bad day, only to find out someone else is having one also.

You feel like maybe you can get by.

Only with this, you put your complet trust it, which is a almost impossible task to complete.

Especailly for me. We all build up these walls, and we know that if we don't let anything out, we won't get as hurt, we won't feel, we will get by.

But you become numb.

And then you relize that you have no reason to go to bed at night, it just means you'll have to get up in the morning, and that task in it's self seems impossible.

But having that knowladge deep down that it WILL be okay, no matter whats going on at the moment, that someday, sometime, in the future, things will be better, is the only way I know anyone can get over things.

Maybe I just hang out with Preacher Boy too much, but if you put your faith in God, you know things will be okay.

Yeah, your still going to cry, and it's still going to hurt, but at least your not numb.

I"ve found myself actually putting this theory into action recently, due to circumstances beyond my controle, which is really everything if you think about it.

I've stoped thinking about consiquences, and have started just going with what my heart tells me. What God tells me.

Would Anyone like to donate to the red cross? Sure, have my lunch money. I can find someone to give me something later.

So, want to know something even funnier then my computer application teachers voice?

I've completly changed my carrier, my life goals, my occupation, based on a dream.

And a MTV video.

But mostly this dream.

And I havn't told a living sole yet. Not my parents, not my friends, not J.

Just you.