Drifiting identities

K calls in tears, J says how happy he is, and Kasey brings on the drama.

And I begin to wonder, is it all worth it?

Certenly it must be, how unfair life is to some, and how wonderful it is to those who don't truyl appricate it. Insted they dwell on what they've lost, not what they've gaind and learned.

Today at lunch, Josh sat with us because he car was broken. I'm dissapointed to say that I was almost ashamed of my friends, the way they behaved.

And K and I begin to talk less and less, nothing personal, our intrets are just changing, she's loosing her self and I think I'm finally becoming something.

So this is when I should be there for her, support her, tell her how everythings going to be okay.

Any yet I find myself being desgusted by her mannor, cringing when she curses.

Not to say I don't blame her.

I suppose what I'm saying is, that now that I find myself in a new setting with amazing people with awesome traits all around me, I begin to question what my next move should be.

Surround myself with people who share my values, my intrests, or should I stay with the ones who need me, the ones who are lost?

Because maybe, maybe I want to be selfish and be with these new people. But maybe at the same time I can't bear the thought of leaving the people who saved me so many times before.

In all honosty, I probably don't have to do either.

I'm sure its possible to be perfectly respetable friends with both, I'm above clicks, this is high school people!

What I suppose I"m trying to say, is that they hold me down.

And how do you explain that to a crying girl?