Changes

I don't think I ever relized that life changes, I mean, I suppose somewhere within my subconsciouse I relized that it was unavoidable, but I never thought it would happen.

The funny thing?

Its not even happening to me.

No, its happening to L, someone I've never met in person, and yet I feel somehow saddened that they will no longer be around.

Though perhaps it is due to the fact I sympathise with Lea. Circimstances so completly unfiar have been thrown in front of her, and theres no where around.

Could I survive them?

I really don't know, possibly yes, but not without incredible repercussions.

Some change is just supposed to happen, you feel it, and hopefully you accept it.

Because if can't fight change, it will drain you of your emotions and relationships if you do.

K and I never talk anymore, when we do I find myself forcing words to be spoken, common ground is no longer found easily.

I find myself wishing for something new, yet I'm afraid to let go of the old.

Because the old is so comfortable, yet so unstable. You sit there, with these people who you KNOW you don't relate to anylonger, and you wonder when everything will crash down around you.

But you can't possibly bear to leave them, because they were the people you knew, the people you loved for so long, and to you, theres nothing else.

So your looking at the unknown, wondering if the chance at something better is worth the chance of loosing comfort.

And then you take that chance, and you find you absolutly love this change, and you slowly forget how you felt with your old friends, but I mean it dosn't really matter right? Its just change.

But you have to remember that those people where your life once, and though they will never be again, they will always be there for you, always loving you, just waiting to embrace you.

Or at least, thats how it should work.